Stressed!

So, let me give an update to all of you about all the little things going on lately. I need to give the update because then you will understand when I tell you why I had a complete meltdown in public today. Yes, I seriously did. Read on...

So, many of you know that my Grandfather has been battling Lymphoma. He has been going through chemo and for the most part has been doing well. Lately though, it's been hitting him really hard. He just is not bouncing back between treatments. Last Friday my mom and grandmother took him to the hospital for an IV because he was feeling really terrible. He felt a little better on Saturday, so my g'ma, mom and I went to the Plano Junior Leagues 'Neath the Wreath' and to lunch. It was a fun time...

We got back and my g'pa was fine...he has been looking "sick" to me lately, but I just attributed that to all the chemo. Plus, his last chemo was going to be on Tuesday, which means he's had a lot of that stuff wearing him down. Any way...so Sunday I get a text from my mom that they are taking him to the ER...he was still not feeling well AND was having trouble breathing. (FYI~the lymphoma is in his lung). @ the ER they determine that he has fluid in one lung (which he has had before) and pneumonia in the other. YIKES. So...he is admitted. He was there from Sunday to Wednesday. I am so worried about him, my g'ma and my mom.... but I have been keeping it in because I don't want them to know I am worried. It's been wearing on me all week. His internist thinks that there may be a new tumor...which is completely scary to think about. I really hope that's not the case. We will be waiting to see after he has some sort of special scan. So, please, keep us in your prayers that the new stuff is scar tissue and not a tumor. My gramps has been through so much and he and my g'ma need a break. His oncologist said that cancer is hard on the patient, but it's even harder on the family. GOD BLESS US ALL, especially G & G!


Ok, now on to the next stressor....
This morning, my best friend Sue called me. She and her husband David own Ridgepoint Athletic Club in Rockwall. This morning it caught on fire. Thankfully the damage was only to a portion on the building (mainly the locker rooms and bathrooms) but there is a lot of smoke and water damage to the rest. No one was hurt and they are not sure what the cause of the fire was yet but please keep them in your prayers too.

Stressor #3...
WORK! I am a recruiter, and my boss, as nice of a guy as he is, is not management material. It's just really stressful all the time! I talked to him about a lot of things in a round about way and it's helped. Let's hope things continue to get better.

And #4...
Many of your know I lived in Kansas for 2 years but am now back in TX. I have been putting off getting my TX registration, mainly because the office hours were 8-5 and then I was out of town, etc. So...I have been driving on expired Kansas tags since NOV. 1st. I finally was able to get there today...thankfully. I have had MAJOR anxiety about driving on expired tags...I was terrified I was going to get a ticket. So, today, I go to the Tax office with all the things they told me to bring...insurance, registration receipt form Kansas, cash (they don't take credit cards). Well, I get there and the registration receipt is from the 1st time I registered in KS (10/2006) and they needed the 10/2007 one. So I kept my cool...called my bank and asked them to fax over the form that I needed. Only, they don't keep that because Kansas is a jacked up electronic state, um, ok...so she sends me something else...THE SAME 10/2006 FORM THAT I HAVE. Great. I feel a melt down coming on. So, I call the Kansas DMV as they are the ones that apparently have the form. The lady tells me she is the state office (she was really nice about it though!) and tells me to call the county office. She even gives me the number. Cool. So I dial at 3:57...busy, I redial...busy. Again...busy....again...busy. You get the point. Finally, at 4 pm on the dot I get through and get a recording saying they are closed and that their business hours are from 8am to 4pm. Great. Enter tears and begin full meltdown in public. At that point I had it. I had so much stress and anxiety about EVERYTHING and I could not bear the thought of getting in my car and anxiously driving home praying I did not get a ticket. I was full on balling....telling them about my grandfather, etc . The lady was SO understanding. She said, "I know sweet heart, it all comes at once." I was so lucky she was so caring. I start to gain my composure and she tells me she can sell me a 30 day temp tag for $25 bucks. I tell her that would be great but I decided to go down and check one more time for the 10/2007 form. So, I go downstairs, get in my car, go through the glove box...nothing. I decided to open up my cool owners manual zipper thing and guess what....it was there! Praise the Lord!! I got the tags. YAY & WHEW!

Last (little) stressor...
In Kansas, they only have one license plate...a back one. Here, they have it on the front and back. Well, I bought my car in KS so there is no front license plate holder. Uh oh. So I can the dealership to see if they can put a holder on for me...they say yes...it's $8 for the part (ok, good, that's reasonable) but will be $65 for the instillation. WHAT? Oh HECK NO! So I call my dad and he told me to go get it and he will try to put it on. So, hopefully that will work!

So, there it is. All the things that have been beating me down all came out today. I feel a little better after typing this. I am not sure if any of you are still reading this but at least it's therapeutic to share it with you all, even if you only read the 1st few sentences.

Now I am going to go take a walk around my neighborhood. I hope it makes me feel even better. And then a yummy taco diner chicken americano dinner (yes, I am splurging a little and possibly doing a tad of emotional eating, but whatever, at least I acknowlege that!) and then I am going to take a warm bath and tuck in to watch Greys.

Again, please keep us in your prayers. Love you all!